ring around the rosie...
and another birthday eve has come my way.
tomorrow, 25 years ago, i was born by a mother who didn't care if she never saw me after they took me away.
.. i was born into a family that is riddled with drug and alcohol abuse.. diabetes.. high blood pressure.. stupidity.. and a general know how for not caring..
ah yes, this day i have much to be thankful for.
.. i'm thankful for the hardships i was hit with early on.
because of that.. i've been blessed with a certain mental awareness.. as well as a certain automatic oblivion..
which comes in handy..
i like being able to be in a place where you can't see..
.. even though.. i'm -right- there.. .. still.. being seen is almost impossible..
and i enjoy that.. or atleast i did..
i'm ready to settle down.
to show everyone that i have the ability to realize that how i was raised isn't how it's supposed to be.
not only that..
but show them how it -is- supposed to be.
but then again..
i'm also ready to show everyone what happens when you raise someone like you raised me..
how they never do anything right... never make anything of themselves..
.. just aimlessly wander through their numerous fuck-ups.
and blame you for it.
the choice is clear.
depending upon who you are.
.. hey.. once upon a time..
there was a person who lived happily ever after.